The last time I cut was last September, almost a year ago. Part of me is proud of that, and part of me is wondering if I should even be proud of not doing something that I shouldn't have ever started in the first place...

But anyways. It's September again, and my emotions are starting to get a little whacked out and all over the place even though I think I'm doing fine right now. At least, I feel like everything is fine-ish, but sometimes my mind wanders off and I completely space out and start thinking about SI. It has happened a few times already this week.

I don't know if it's because it's the same time of year again, and my feelings from when I last harmed are coming back again without me even realizing it? Is it possible to have unconscious triggers, just little things like the weather, or what month it is? When I step outside and feel the growing autumn chill, I feel like it's hitting me all over again, and I don't know what to do. I just want to focus on the important things and not screw them up and I can't do that if random thoughts are popping into my head.

Thanks for reading.

- AJ