about rape, not graphic, but you may not want to read on.........................
Yesterday I was talking with my mother about psych issues and the topic of trauma came up. I explained things like sometimes my body reacts to anniversaries before my brain catches on,,being hyper-vigilant to sounds & smells, nightmares, flash backs . stuff like that. And then the strangest thing happened she said she doesn't remember one of the times I was raped?!?!?
I was raped in the wee hours of my 21st b-day, "friends" had left me passed out at a strangers house... woke up while it was happening. I clearlyremember driving to their home screaming the entire way, I clearly remember telling them I was raped before I jumped into the shower and scrubbed at my skin till it was raw.
She remembers me coming home and being upset... but doesn't remember me telling them that I was raped. which is also so confusing, because I remember being in their car that afternoon driving to find the house that it had happened in.
So what do I trust .... my memory or hers???????????