Still stuck in the psychiatric ward. Yes I'm allowed my own phone and laptop.

I hate the feeling of "oh wow I'm okay I might get discharged soon!" but it's a false alarm. I hate this. I hate having a reprieve and then ... the feeling comes back. Emptiness. The feeling that this will never end and I should just give up. I'm tired. I don't know when I will stop being so tired of fighting this... even as I try to phrase it to my docs.. it's not helping. At all.

Now I'm not sure to be completely honest or just slap on the facade, as usual. *sigh*