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Originally Posted by marjan
I don't know how to control my negative thoughts and emotions. They pop up in my head when he's not with me and I have no control on them.....
Then I turn to be a nagging person!
I'm so afraid of losing him....We love each other and he's so good to me....He has two small kids and I don't have kids....That's our main issues....Kids like me and are good with me....However, when he's with his kids, I feel lonely and sad!
We are always together but yesterday he didn't come, and he went to his mom's home since her home is closer to the kids school and his work!
I felt extremely sad and I gave him so much hard time!
I know I don't want to leave him and we are really good together, but I'm not sure how I can control my negative thoughts and emotions....
And I know if I nag all the time and be depressed and sad, then he eventually gets tired of me!
It's been 7 month since we are together.....and we've been seeing each other every single days of these 7 months, not even one day without at least one hour spending time together....From the time that he asked me out for the first date till now, we've seen each other every day!
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Wow! That sounds sooooo similar to my own situation, right down to the 2 kids!
For me, I find everytime I think a negative thought, I catch myself now, and try to offset it with a positive thought. It's hard (really hard) to do at first, but it gets easier.
I also have been trying to work on myself. Get my self-esteem higher. That man loves me no matter if I was 10 lbs or 10000lbs, but I am self-conscious, so I need to be stronger, and more confident. For me, it's re-connecting spiritually and getting healthy, do something for you, whatever it is you need to.. it might help!
It's easy to feel left out re: the kids, but just remember next time you feel that way, he's letting you share his, and his kids lives, so he's probably got a big enough heart, and love enough for all of you, equally. Some days your higher on the totem pole, and other days, the kids may be, but it evens out in the end
