Wow. That sounds exactly like my mom. Every time my mom speaks to me, I sincerely want to punch her in the face and I'm really not a violent person. She's an obnoxious narcissist and so many people fall for her lies. Sometimes I do because she manages to say the meanest things to me in the sweetest voice. The other day, she was laughing saying that I'm an irresponsible sloppy mess. I wouldn't have even noticed it if someone outside of the family didn't see through it and stood up for me. I wonder how much she degrades me and I just accept it and internalize it.

She covers up for all of the abuse with money. She pays for everything and I can't figure out if she loves me or what her motive is for paying for me. I figure she feels like money is love. I do know that there is no amount if money in the world that can buy my love or make up for the childhood she stole from me. Just because I was always fed and clothed that doesn't mean I wasn't neglected