I really wish you were right. I have gotten bloodwork and test done before when I had this episode, but nothing abnormal came up. I really think this is all in my head.

My only guess is it might be clinical depression, because I wouldn't randomly just start feeling bad out of nowhere for no reason with no physical cause (even though clinical depression is physical, you can't physically test for it I guess?) But I am by no means a mental health doctor, so I can't diagnose myself. And since I wake up every morning feeling nervous, but not panicky, that might be anxiety speaking...and my obsessive thoughts started 2 days after....could that be anxiety or depression...or both?

Feeling like I will never get better....I feel like I'm doomed in a dream forever and I will never be myself again. And every time I try to remember when I was fine, which was a week ago, i get upset and start gagging (not on purpose, but because I am so upset about it.) and getting super angry.

I begin to wonder if it's all in my head or if there is something seriously wrong. I really hope the mental health doctor I am seeing will figure something out. i can't take it anymore.

It's so bad that I can't even get out of my own bed, and I'm becoming more and more frustrated each day because I can't shake these feelings/thoughts no matter how much I try to distract myself. It's just also gotten so bad, I question every move I make...(including typing letters as we speak) I seriously feel like I'm going to explode.