I am new to this forum...I joined mainly because I feel I need support. I am trying sooo hard to understand what went wrong. I moved all of my stuff out on Monday and Tuesday, briefly reconciled for a few hours (yes hours), and broke it off again last night.
I am devestated, but the logical part of me says good riddance. He wasn't nice to my kids, he wasn't nice to me, he didn't want a family, he was MEAN.
How can someone who says they love you, look at you with tears streaming down your face, and say, "I don't care". "I don't care what you do" "Take you stuff, your kids, and your f'in cat, and get out"
The shear meaness of him just blows my mind, and I am trying to understand why.
I gave this man my everything, and I loved him. I would've done anything for him.

So, here i am. Broken at the moment. Not sure how life will be at all fun anymore. I smile for my kids....my daughter who is 10 is quite happy. SHe says to me "Mom he didn't treat you nice" Breaks my heart.
I made a lot of bad choices, and now I am paying for it.
He blamed me for everything....told me he spend the summer with my kids and I, so I shouldn't expect to see him in September. He thought my kids were disrespectful, spoiled, and lazy (they are 10 and 8).
He texted other girls behind my back, and lied about it.
And he told me I made him miserable.
I feel really terrible.
And very, very alone.