Also, have you talked to anyone in your family or maybe your boyfriend about it? (not sure how long you 2 have been together for you to feel comfortable enough to talk to him.)
At least let one person you trust know about this issue. It might make you feel better to talk to someone that knows you personally and that you can trust and they can help support you through your bad times. It might not make you feel 100% better, but it is a step!

My boyfriend is the only one who really knows about my issue, and he has been very supportive of me. So try to do the same with a family member or a friend.

We will always be here for you regardless.