No you're right, it's wearing & exhausting. It's worse cause if I didn't have the rapid heart thing & tightening of the chest (measurable) it would be assumed I was faking & a drama queen. Just cause you don't show a VISIBLE impairment it's too easy to dismiss.

In my mind (jmo) having this is like being diabetic. I'm in it for the long haul I guess.
It's normal to have ups & downs. It sounds like your in a low point? A friend told me to look at times like this that it could only get better if I thought I'd hit bottom.
I have no clue why that helped me but it did.

Well that & looking at Grumpy Cat funnies!