Okay something different has happened.
I felt "okay" after my boyfriend left for work (which was around 3) Was able to kind of focus on things, but not 100%. Baby steps I suppose.
And still had a few obsessive thoughts here and there, but managed them somewhat.
But right now I feel like I am in a dream state more than ever. My head feels very heavy, but empty. It's not delirium, because I am not tired. It's like I don't recognize where I'm at. I'm not freaking out about it or anything. I just feel strange and I don't like it.
What the heck is going on? This is not normal for me.