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Originally Posted by wonderingaboutme1
 I have made many mistakes in the past and realize that it really comes down to you. I am doing my best to remember who I am and can be at my core while at the same time dealing with baggage that may take a while to sort out and put away. At times, it's a matter of getting your emotional state and your logical reason to line up. Much more easy to see than do, I know. It's not impossible though. |
I refuse to live my life looking for the bad in people anymore. Been there, done that, it is a cold and desolate place based on all of the negative emotions. Not to get uber religious, but I believe God, or the Gods, or the Universe or whatever deity or force is believed in, gave us the capacity for joy as well as pain, and free will to choose. I also believe that higher power absolutely wants us to choose the path of light. Valerie Harper said something pretty important to me this morning on GMA - in a nutshell, if you spend your time looking for/at the bad, you miss out in the beauty of all of the good.
It is hard, in my own fight against PTSD I struggle with this, but I refuse to acknowledge only the darkness any more. I have been blessed to have had some wonderful people come to my comfort and support in the past year, especially a couple of fine young men who have been my personal trainers at my gym, who went so far beyond just doing their jobs it has touched my heart in a way I never imagined possible. The type of young guys who are me realize humanity has a bright future if only we aspire to the good.