Hello. I am a 22 year old male. For years I have been convinced by all of the material I have read that I suffer from BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). Why I am posting here I am unsure but oh well. Anxiety is a huge factor in all of my daily problems/struggles. First I suffer from horrid daily headaches that almost always end up being a migraine later in the day. The pain is so severe that I want to stay in my bedroom all of the time. When I am not in pain I want to avoid anything that I fear will be a trigger for a headache. When I have a migraine, I get anxious that its going to be a bad one and because I'm so anxious and paranoid about it, it makes my head hurt that much worse. When I don't have a migraine, I still fear that I will get one regardless of anything and because I'm stressing myself out by worrying, lo and behold my migraine appears again. Now this has been affecting my relationship with fiancé, work, the fact I don't even have my license yet, my living situation and just everything in general. My brain runs extremely fast and its so fast that when I have a simple thought as to where I would like to eat or what I would like to eat turns into a hell battle because I can't say words fast enough out loud to keep up with my fast brain and I get confused so easily and then I don't even want to do anything at that point. I just flat out get upset too fast and see everything in black and white. I am an extremely negative person and I can spin almost anything to be the worst thing ever imaginable and THAT is the ONLY option. There's plenty more I could discuss but I suppose I will wait for questions so I can coherently answer them instead of sifting through my head and putting it down on paper. Now I don't really know where I am going with this but I just flat out need some kind of help because the severe depression I am going through is getting out of control and I hate waking up every single morning. I have nothing going on \in my life except for my lovely fiancé but I am scared to death of losing her before I can even start working on these issues myself. Any feedback would be soo great to hear. So thanks everyone who gives this a read.