I know where you coming from. This statement is especially something I can relate to in terms of how I can feel about certain situations in my life at times. It's not everything there is to life though. Betrayal and trust are both equally part of life. To give into one more than the other is going to get anyone off balance with reality. Sometimes, we are just unfortunate as far as our environment and circumstances go. You can change that though. Yes, betrayal will make it's way to you again. It's up to you as to how deep it cuts you though. I have been on both sides of that coin. I've just decided to accept that the world isn't a flawless utopia but that there is still so much good in it. You have to see the good in yourself first. Again, knowing this and actually going through with it is the true struggle.

As trustworthy of a person as you may be, you have betrayed someone, at some point in your life, however big or small. Accept that you and everyone you have met and ever will are and have been capable of betrayal. It is a natural part of life. Forgive whomever betrayed you so you can move on from believing everyone is like them. Work on it, even if it takes a year. Consider the reason they may have betrayed you. Maybe they were weak. Believe or not, most betrayals happen because people do not want to get hurt, not necessarily that they want to hurt you. Not everyone is out to get you, most of us are just big cowards. But that's human. Like MotownJohnny mentioned, human instincts can and do override human emotions.

None of us want to get hurt. Most of us are selfish about it. You seem to be more selfless than most. You have to learn to discern among your peers whom to trust, because if you are not picky about it, you are going to get hurt More often than not out there. It took me 25 years to merely realize that. It will probably take many years ahead to discern the level of trust I build up with someone. That doesn't mean I believe no one is trustworthy. I just know not everyone is. There are different levels of trust as well. Having everyone you meet start of at a negative one-hundred on a scale between 100 and -100 is going to make life very dreadful though, for you and everyone around you. Don't give trust away like bread, but don't believe no one is trustworthy either. Let people earn it -or not- on their own merits. Anyone you don't know deserves to start at 0 and work their way up or down from there.

To be blunt, there are people out there whom, like you currently, believe no one is trustworthy. Some of them, like you, are very hurt by this because they feel they have been, and it seems unfair. Others, in order to adapt, decide to become untrustworthy themselves and do away with any sense of morality, perceiving life as nothing more than dog eat dog. It's a shame, they miss out on the innocence in life, and worse, sacrifice their own.

Not everything is black and white either. Someone you can trust maybe someone some others can't and vice versa. I don't think someone can be labeled as untrustworthy in every aspect of the word. Ask yourself what you are looking for in someone and then slowly discern if that person is what you are searching for. Slowly. Don't give all of yourself to someone when they've only shown you a bit.

Wow, that was friggin' long, LOL