(((Jesster))),

Welcome to PC and the PTSD forum. I am so sorry to hear how much you are struggling right now. It is good to hear you have a doc that is helping you, but do you have a therapist to work with too?

Oh, hun, all of us can relate to the challenge of having family and others understand how challenging PTSD is. You are not alone and whatever you do, do "not" give in to feeling you are somehow a bother for your family ok? I went through that myself and I got into a very dangerous mindset. But I am doing better now, so give yourself time and do "not" give into these "bad feelings" ok?

Right now, you absolutely must be dedicated to helping yourself, do not worry about what others think and feel either, you must decide to take whatever time you need to "heal" and hun, it does take time.

One of the things I realized is that for a time, I did have these "bad thoughts" and it is important to remember that "they do subside" just as some of the other symptoms of PTSD. As you commit to working through it, these bad feelings "will slowly go away", so never feed into them.

If you have a bad day, come here and talk. Be patient though because sometimes it takes some time for a response as it all depends on who is on PC and reading the forums that are actual "members" and not just "guests" as "guests" cannot post in the forums.

There are very kind, caring and supportive members here that totally understand the "no lips and kissing" Yes, we know about that challenge so you are not alone.

(((Big Welcoming Hugs))))
OE