I've never felt love, nor have I ever bonded with anyone. I'm not sure why that is. I've never felt a desire to feel love and I don't particularly care to bond with people. I never experienced the bonding that is supposed to happen between mother and child. My mother feels more like a stranger or acquaintance to me than anything else.

I don't feel love for my own child either. I'm not sure if that's because I'm incapable of feeling love for her or because, being raised in an abusive environment made me afraid to feel love, for fear that it may turn on me in some way. The only thing I really know about love is that it makes people vulnerable.

To me, people aren't really something to be loved or bonded with. They are more like toys or objects that either have use or no use. If they are useful, then they're as good as slaves. If they're useless, they may as well be dead for all I care.

I do care about my daughter a little differently though, and the reason for that difference is because she's a part of me, an extension of myself. Though, if I was to be completely honest, I would say that what I feel for her isn't much different to how I feel about every other possession in my house. She's my property. I own her.