Thanks Kaliope,

I know I need to go. I'm not sure really why I'm avoiding going. I don't usually feel anxious about going to the doctor. I'm still depressed I guess because I'm avoiding much of what I don't absolutely have to do.

I think I just figured it out as I was typing. Ugh, the reason I'm avoiding the doc is because my pdoc told me I should get tested for diabetes. So if I see my doc I need to have him order that.

I'm scared to death that I might have it! I can't get a grip on my eating, and if I have diabetes I will get lectured from all sides. I'll have horrible repercussions from the disease and instead of sympathy I will get blamed. Crap!