My boyfriend of 10 months just broke up with me and I'm not even sure how I feel exactly. I'm definitely hurt. But now I have to change some of my behaviors. For the last 10 months I imagined him holding me to help me sleep. For the last 8 months I've been sleeping in his t-shirt. For the last 4 months I've been sleeping with a teddy bear from him. I have literally forgotten how to function as a single person. Of course this break up only happened an hour ago but I keep thinking of things that have been habits for me that I now need to change.

Also the break up was really out of the blue and I feel like I had been lied to about how he felt. He hasn't explained to me why we broke up (because I have no idea) but hopefully he will in the morning. I love him and I know I always will but I also know this will be very hard. He was my first love, he was the first person I had sex with, and he's the first person I've ever given this much power to hurt me and that's exactly what happened. This is my first heart break and I don't feel like I'm doing very well. I honestly thought I would spend my life with him and now he's gone with no explanation.