((((((((((mssumom))))))))
My heart goes out to you. I so understand. I wish I had words of wisdom. Getting away is paramount to your healing but getting away requires facing the devil sometimes, especially when all resources avail nothing. If this is true with you, I've been there, I understand and I'm so sorry.

Sometimes we cry from the rooftop and yet people don't seem to hear. And oftentimes crying from the rooftop brings greater consequences. I'm so sorry if you are in this same position. I so hope you will continue to fight the fight to live and make a better life for yourself. It will be worth it even if giving up seems easier sometimes. I know there doesn't seem to be a way right now. I so know that feeling. I'm so glad you have found a T to help you through some things and to support you.

I know you feel it's your fault. I understand that feeling. I hope that eventually you will see that it's not. My heart just goes out to you. Please keep going. Don't give up. We'll support you as we can.

Sending you warm thoughts for a peaceful future.