Oh Lori,

My heart breaks for you. He has you believing this is your fault and it isn't honey. It's his insecurities within himself. I wish I lived close so we could talk and you would have a shoulder to cry on.
Sweetie, know that I have seen this in my life and it is never good. Not me, but I grew up watching my Father use my Mother as his personal punching bag. I swore I would never marry a man who had self esteem issues and I live that promise.
Lori, please, leave. Somehow, someway, there HAS to be a way to get out and away from this man before he kills you. And, Lori, that is what is going to happen if you don't get out. His anger will worsen over time and his fists will get harder. Believe me, trust me, it's NOT you. It's him. And, you can't help him, either. He needs professional help. Alot of it.
I am so thankful you are seeing a T and continue please to see one.
My heart hurts for you. From one heart attack survivor to another, you know that stress is a killer.
Please seek help now.
Please keep letting us know how you are doing. I worry alot for you.
Gently Hugs,
Linda