Jadedbutterfly, that is exactly what I'm doing right now, "romanticizing". That words sums it all up.

Stainedglassheart, I believe you can do it! It's just that I feel pathetic for feeling proud. I have not SI-ed in a while. I don't think that's very worth being proud of. Why should I be proud of just being how I'm supposed to be? Why should I be proud of simply not doing a bad thing? Anyways, those are just the thoughts going on in my head right now.

Another thing I've noticed for a while is that whenever I think about SI, like seriously think about it, I get these chills. Literal chills through my body, even if the room is burning hot. Does this happen to anyone else?

- AJ