Not so good right now. I had a day at the surgical assessment centre yesterday. The dr says I'm healthy as a horse, except for arthritis requiring surgery, and bp2 of course. My blood type is B+. That sounds like a joke. B positive.
My boyfriend is being very distant - not sure what's up with him. Why did he even come back if he's going to treat me this way? It really makes me wonder what he's thinking. He says he's busy. That's b******t. I'm starting to get scared about my surgery and now he won't even talk to me. So very not good.
I see my pdoc today, so that's one good thing. First visit since my (3rd) dx. First visit since I finally believed that I have bp2. I have so many questions for him.
I'm sorry I haven't been participating much in the forums lately. I'm feeling low and introspective. I'm trying to think of every detail I can to get my apartment ready for when I come home after surgery. I'll have to use a walker for six weeks and I need to buy and install things to retrofit my apartment for my temporary handicap. So much to do! And I'm alone, my kids don't live here, and there's no one to help me. I think I'm in self care mode right now before my surgery. I know I need to keep a positive attitude for my surgery, that it's very important to be positive, and I'm trying. It's hard when I have no one to talk to and I'm so lonely.
Thanks for being here everyone. I appreciate you all very much.