I am soooooooooooo sad. I feel like any progress I might have made is gone. I saw T last night and I was mean to him...I was short in my response and just generally acted very irritable. I needed him BADLY but when he tried to be there for me, I wouldn't let him in. I told him its no big deal. When he empathized I told him it doesn't matter, basically. I wouldn't let him get anywhere remotely close to my pain by denying it away. I feel like even though I went to the session, I didn't really "show up"...not really. It's like I left my real self in the car and just cracked the window. Told her I'd be back in an hour /: Now my real self misses T so much, it's like I have to wait a whole nother week just to try again

I'm not sure what I'm asking for here, but just needed to get this out there. Nobody knows or understands what I'm going through...