Your experience sounds similar to mine. Fortunately for you, your present situation seems like a dream compared to mine. You have a partner, a family that cares about you, a future paved with promise. Be careful not to jeopardize these blessings in coping (I did, I lost more than I ever thought I could). I'm not trying to be pessimistic, in fact, I quite admire your situation. If all else fails, seek therapy and/or meds.