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Originally Posted by skeksi
I think I'm ashamed to be needing (and worse, accepting) support. I always say I feel "stupid," but the actual feeling is probably vulnerability. The recordings get at such a primal need, you know? I'm embarrassed to need them, and getting them is just too much to bear--I have to hide my face. Like somehow that will keep T from seeing my need!
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This totally sums up how I feel as well. This whole thing with the jumper has made me realise how having needs makes me feel shame, fear and disappointment.
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Originally Posted by hankster
We finally get to play peek-a-boo with someone who won't take it as an opportunity to get away from us, who will actually stay.
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Wow, Hankster. Thank you. This is a remarkable insight - did you hear about those studies about insecure attachment where they looked at how infants reacted to people's faces? I hadn't even thought about this. It's kind of an object permanency thing, in a way. And I think it was a very young part of me that did that.