I hear you saying you are lost in grief for your son and you have no motivation to do anything. you seem lost in hopelessness and it does not appear that your meds or therapy are yet effective in putting a dent in your grief process. grief is complicated. it takes time. you will get there. I would talk to pdoc about trying another antidepressant if this one hasn't shown signs of helping yet. have compassion for yourself. you have suffered a great loss. it is going to take you time to get over it. t is there to listen to you cry. take care.