Hi there TexasDoll361,

It sure looks like your jealous tendencies have caused you a lot of frustration. It seems like you have a good understanding already that something is wrong and why. As you pointed out, you lack the self-confidence you need to be at peace and to trust others. Building self-esteem is something most people have to work on because we have a tendency to discount our own true value and emphasize our flaws. That's not really fair to anyone especially to ourselves.

My suggestion is you talk to a therapist about this. Since your jealousy extends to more than just relationship boundaries and includes women on TV and other media, you would benefit by learning some strategies to help you feel more empowered about yourself and less threatened by others. You deserve to enjoy healthy relationships so give yourself that opportunity by finding ways to be at peace with others and yourself.