Dear saltysweet,

You probally have an emotional attchment to the word "no" from childhood.
This word might take you back to times when you were vulnerable and needed permission to do anything. When we are children we have little power and when the answer is always "no" we feel belittled, denied, and unworthy.

But you are not a child anymore and you are in control of your life.
Only you can control your emotional reaction from this new perspective.
In life you will likely hear "no" more often then Yes.
Dont allow the fear of rejection to stop you for asking for what you want/need.

The fact that you worked for the library, asked if it was okay to go and they said yes. I would be embarrassed also. That was in bad taste of the Library.
I am a bookworm and love those sales!! Hide a book
Happiedasiy