Over the past few months I've gone through a failed relationship, a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, legal problems and financial problems. The two things that for me have been the hardest to deal with are the diagnosis and the breakup. I was living with this girl, her two kids and a bunch of animals. It was a full house but I was happy. When they all left it was devastating for me. I'm still having a hard time dealing with the loss.This all happened shortly after I was diagnosed and she admitted that that was one reason why we broke up, she just couldn't deal with me. She did try though but it was too much. The legal problems came as a result of my own poor judgement and financial problems just add to everything. So, these days I feel worthless. I feel like a failure. I feel like my illness has caused me heartache. I haven't been able to forgive myself for all the bad I've done and all the misery I've caused people. So, how do I stop beating myself up? How do I forgive myself? How do I not feel like a total failure? Any suggestions would be great. Thanks for reading.