I used to be more explosive; I would go into these terrible rages, and did some pretty awful things, like hold a knife to a boyfriend's neck, ripping the hair right out of people's head, black out and wake up to find myself pounding peoples faces to the floor, etc. I still get very angry but I've tried too hard to overcompensate, so I would often internalize my anger, stuff my face with food to the point where I was morbidlly obese, stuff my feelings so much that I ended up blowing up anyway, resorting to online pornography, harrassing old boyfriends, etc. I often withdraw also and stay away from people now--partly because of my anxiety and partly because I just don't like dealing with people and Im afraid of losing my cool with them. I go back and forth between shutting people out and shouting, blaming. Because of this, I've been told that I'm like "two different people living in the same body," people asking if I had DID, etc.