I have the same problem, and no i dont think it can be changed. I will never have any children. If i cant deal with my life or the way i feel, whats the point in purposly putting them through it to. My mom always pretends shes the best, but wont hesitate to put me down. Im ****ed up in the head becuase of everything shes said and done. Ive had so many people die on me its unreal, ive only got her, but she doesnt understand, she doesnt care. I approach her for help, i tell her ive tried to kill myself, she just says "well you dont know what my life was like growing up" When i went into hospital 2 years ago for an overdose. I dont know whats wrong with me, i cant control my emotions, i hurt myself, if im not balling my eyes out for no reason, i just feel so numb and useless, really whats the point in lving. we all die anyway and none of us get an farther forward, whats thepoint in getting hurt over and over just to die and no one care. I always feel like my heads going to explode, and i used to be worse than i am now. I used to literally pull my hair out, i used to bang my head up the wall just so it felt like the pressure was being taken off. Im not a selfish person, i always try and be there for people, especially my mom. But why is it when you need someone, everyone ****s off. No one understands, my bf gets angry if i talk to him about it, he tries to tell me im being over dramatic, he argues with the way i feel. Its a viscious cycle, that only ends once your dead.