I am so sorry, Jean17, it is difficult to understand the importance of our lovers' mental health problems not only because we are in love with them but also because they manipulate us. They play this game almost perfectly: we get trapped thinking it is not that bad, it is fixable, etc., etc. Nowadays I feel very guilty as well because of the mental health of my brother. being overseas I have not perceived the size of his behavior problems. I underestimated them and in consequence advised my mom wrongly. Now we all are suffering the consequences. Of course, my advice is not the only cause of the current status, but I could have helped better. There is nothing I can do about the past, though. I can just deal with the present moment. I am not feeling too confident right now, i feel a heavy stone on my shoulders. I feel like you, and I wish you the best. Still, we have to believe that something different, better, will happen. And that we will be wiser, inspired, stronger to take advantages of opportunities. There are opportunities out of there, opportunities to solve problems, but sometimes we do not take advantage of them, hope we can see these opportunities coming in the near future.A hug