I've been dealing with bulimia for over a year and a half now, and was hospitalized for it about this time, a year ago. At the consultation where i was being diagnosed for admittance to this hopsital (my mother finally convinced me help was needed), i was diagnosed as Bulimic to the point of Anorexia. It is not true that all bulimic's are overweight. As was said in another repost, people with bulimia can be underweight, overweight and can even maintain a normal weight. I was 5' 6" at about 105 lbs. It may not seem to be such a low weight, but i looked like a walking skeleton. Big boned, even at birth, I do not have the body structure to be walking around 110lbs. My normal weight should be anywhere from 125+ for my height and body build. I had all the symptoms of a bulimic, but also all the consequences of being anorexic. I was always cold... i was weak.. delerious, my muscle was gone, so i was left with only skin and bones. It was uncomfortable to sit, lie down, even walk. My feet shrunk two sizes, i shrank in height and i had loose skin everywhere. My bulimia had gotten to the point where i would binge and binge and binge, and i would purge and purge and purge until i got everything out. I succeeded because every week i was atleast 3 lbs lighter. I went months without bowel movements, everything on my body was sunken in. I ate like a pig and didnt keep one thing down. I purged to the point where i would go pretty much blind for hours at a time. There was times when i thought i would never see straight again. My heart couldnt be read on a monitor... my blood pressure couldnt be taken and if it did catch on the machine, it was severely low. I would lay there and say to my mother "i think im dying", with no expression of sadness, pain or fear whatsoever. I am now 135 lbs and i have been up and down for the past year since i left the hosptial. I feel that i am falling back into my old habits, but this time i feel as though im GAINING weight instead of losing it. There are all types of bulimic's. Not just overweight ones. You could even appear to be a normal weight where no one would ever suspect you had a problem. I'm sorry to babble on and on.. but i have so much to say about this subject. I wish i could help more...
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Hi All.. my name is Liz. I'm 20 yrs old and I have been struggling for the two years or so, maybe even my whole life, with an eating disorder. I am trying to stick to my recovery.. but I am worried I am veering back onto the path of relapse. I am usually a happy, smiling young woman who loves to be around people.. but latly im sinking back into my shell.. Maybe this will help me.
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