I am also not always sure if I'm a good person at all. I feel like doing cruel things to other people, I care very little for other people, I find myself often very selfish. I guess I thought I'm a good person from the beginning. I used to be so ready to please everybody else. Then When I was 9 yars old and my mother had just died, I saw this weird dream. And in the dream I was so cruel to my mother, like I've never been to anybody. That dream just made me wonder if I 'm just a big fat liar.