Reading your post caused me self recrimination. I am always the first person to tell myself to get over it and move on and be strong and stop whining. I feel like other people think that too. All I can say to you is that I have been working my fanny off for a long time. I am not comfortable with my pain, I want relief. But I can't waive a magic wand, wish I could. I am trying to learn better ways of coping and trying to find the right meds, work hard in therapy. I pushed myself so hard for a long time through more loss and pain then you can imagine to be the best professional, handle everything, be perfect, and here I am against a wall with a very severe depression. I don't believe in my heart, that anyone of us likes to be in pain. Why would we? We want to feel better and are doing the best we can. If seeing others in pain triggers you too much I am sorry for that. As Ozzie says, we travel at different rates and directions. It is not helpful to feel judged here too.