Hello Neutrino, You are not stupid for ranting, this is the place where you can talk about anything thats bothering you. I feel like you a lot of the time, I dont fit in, nobody knows what I am going through and it feels neverending doesnt it. At least you have a therapist. I gave up on mine because I found talking so uncomfortable, that I had to take benzos before I went to see her. If you can keep the lines of communication open you have a great chance of having a "normal" life. Best Wishes.