Well I am feeling stable, which is great right? Yes but I am sooo bored! I have nothing to fight for with the lows and no excitement of a high, although saying that, I am peaking for a few hours here and there! So what do we do while feeling stable? Just live like a 'normal' person? Heck I feel in limbo!

Need and want some excitement but I can't think of anything to get excited about. I am going out for a meal with my bro this evening..all very normal and I should be grateful I am well enough to go out but I am still bored. I am trying not to think about drugs but it is hard. It has been 2 weeks or so now and don't want to give in so early but I need something to tickle me! - So to speak lol Oh the drug thing, I want them when I am high, when I am low and even while stable. I must beat it though....