Looks like the travelling and skewed sleep was affecting my mood, because I've been feeling better. But the tiredness, laziness, and memory problems are still there.

Saw my counsellor the other day. It was nice talking to him, even though there were plenty of interruptions (but at least I had time to talk). I did talk a bit about the medications, and I guess because I'm stable moodwise, my doctor won't want to touch them, not to mention it's a bad idea at the beginning of the semester.

Speaking of semesters, I still haven't gotten all my courses, and I'm still not sure if I'm going to take a part-time load (I have to petition for that). I need humanities electives, but I'm worried about the reading and writing component. I'm not sure how much I can handle. Hopefully getting into a routine will help my tiredness and motivation. Otherwise... well, at least my mood is stable (barring those fun dips into self-loathing and negativity and more triggering ideas). I have that. It's something I didn't have in the spring.

I'm going to petition. If I'm having this many doubts I don't think I want to try 12 credits. Sure, everyone will wonder why I'm not taking a full load and I'll feel like I'm pretending I have problems when I don't and I should be able to handle more and if I can't I'm just plain stupid and...

I hope everyone has a good day. And for those who are finding it really rough, hang in there! If I was a millionaire I'd visit all you folks.