Middlepath, I gained nearly 40 lbs on Zyprexa last year. Like you, I hit my breaking point, and demanded to go off of it. I then tried Geodon, which made me so nauseous that I was vomiting 3-4 times per week, and Latuda, which made my anxiety go through the roof. Neither drug worked as well as Zyprexa. I am now back on Zyprexa, because to me, weight gain is the least of the side effect evils.

The way I see it: I can either be off of Zyprexa, be depressed, and hate everything about myself except for my weight (I'm naturally thin), or I can be on Zyprexa and love everything about myself except for my weight. I'd rather think I was fat than think I was stupid, talentless, worthless, and unlovable. The number on the scale and the reflection in the mirror have never caused me to contemplate sui; you can be fat and a wonderful person! A beautiful personality >> a hot body, any day.

Feel free to try other options, including going med free (I hope to do that once I've graduated in December) but if it doesn't work out, and you have to go back on Lithium, rest assured that there are much worse things to be than fat.