Thank you I think the problem is when we get bored we actually have to live with ourselves imagine that! You have to live with yourself until the end, we can be so difficult to live with sometimes we can't even stand ourselves. I think being bored is dangerous for us, I like to keep busy most of the time, if there is absolutely nothing else to do I'll read self-help psychology books. I know what you mean about the rage, I've blacked out during anger spells before, I didn't believe people when they said what I did either. Still don't believe it, because I don't want to believe I could be that violent.

I ate a bunch of food earlier to boost dopamine and exercised now I'm feeling like like a motor mouth for anxiety I find that practicing meditation every day helps reduce it. When I start slackingon meditation my anxiety gets high again as a result, I especially like mindfulness meditation, it also increases my focus and allows me to relax. It allows me to stay grounded in the present and not be so preoccupied with the future and past. When I'm grounded I can take life as it comes, one moment at a time.