My partner is still accepting the fact that I am indeed BP II. She has suffered from major depression her whole life, so it is unreal for her because she is always so focused on herself. We have a 7 year old daughter and basically I have no choice but to be the parent in charge. However, the last 2 years, especially, have been pure hell. It is fortunate for me that I have not run out of money yet, as so many have. Hopefully now that I have a firm DX I can do something about my future. I feel like I have two problems my addiction problem and now BP. Using drugs and alcohol probably saved my LIFE, because my BP wants to kill me. It will be a miracle if I stay sober until the day I die! I have not told my parents or close friends at this point for fear of losing them. Heck, I am still accepting it myself. I am glad I found PC and y'all. I suffer from OCD issues, but have not been DXed yet. My M.O. is to stop taking medication when i feel good, so I am challenged in that area. I called my therapist today to ask her to tell me to take my meds! She is awesome and so is my Shrink. I am waiting to come down from the mania. Thanks for being here.