Oh man you're in a bad place I doubt there is anything we can suggest to really help you other than not to avoid your partner and t. Right now, you need these ppl, don't shut them out Try and get out for a walk or anything but get out of that bedroom! It will be driving you crazy and feeding your misery!

So come on out and talk to your partner and T about what's happening.....let them help you to at least help yourself

For now I am sending many positive thoughts and the biggest hugs