Lately I feel like I have been getting an awakening about myself. I have been feeling very depressed because of a doctor's procedure that was done for me a couple of days ago. I feel like I have to take it easy. There are things I like to do that can pass the time away but I can't now for the next few days or so. I feel like I am grieving and going crazy. I wished that I never went through with that procedure.

Just today a woman that I know had sent me an email saying that I am very miserable with my life and I need help. She suggested that I should see a Psychiatrist and take anti-depressants. I would have to agree with her on that. But I didn't like the way she came across. She came across as being very stern and she was telling me that I come across as person as someone that nobody would want anything to do with.

Also I have some personal issues to sort out in my life. But I seem to have a hard time making a decision, even though others think that my decision should be easy for me to make. I'm middle aged and alone. It's very frightening to me. I have very few friends, most of them are pretty far away. I have one good friend who just now took off for three weeks on vacation. I miss him a lot. He does not understand about my depression and anxiety but seems like he's willing to be patient with me. So many others are not patient with me.

Are there others that are going through the same thing? I feel so alone in this.