it was ages ago

nothing like it will ever happen again and I will never forget it...

she had my heart in her hand and she snapped it in half...

I forgive her she didn't know what she was doing

the times alone were supreme!

the absolute audacity that we engaged in this ...

it was beyond both our illness and just pure affection and desire

I am so grateful for what she gave me and what I gave her too

two sick people in love it's a disaster seemingly....

I kept trying to leave

because the damage was increasing...

but my love for her was overwhelming me

she had ultimate control I could not keep up with her..
especially being so compromised myself

she chose to never protect me...

and trying suicide became my only escape

those first few weeks of intimate amazement crucified me later on

it was not her fault

she loved me too

and this I will never forget

she is distant now... but I loved her sideways self..

I dream about her most nights

she will continue to be the loveliest female I have ever had the luxury to know

I forgive her for taking off...

I don't believe I can cope with such intense love and she knows that

bipolar beautiful....

and I miss her like something freaking enormous!