Yeah so far the replies to the few things I have posted are just welcome to bpd forums, I understand how that is. I've been reading these forums for a couple years now so I'm as convinced as humanely possible without going to see someone and having me declared with it, that I have BPD. I am just absolutely stuck, no money, no job, came to Arizona while I was homeless in Detroit trying to take care of my sick older father. I am in no position to receive help from the government or state or anyone/anything really. I can't hold a job longer then two months without eventual firing occurring. I'm sick to death of everything and there is zero hope for myself and I have absolutely nothing ever to look forward to and the few things I DO look forward to, always get stripped away. I cannot stand myself its getting so ridiculous. And I don't even know what I'm doing on here. How can I get offered help/support if I literally cannot do anything to pursue these said possible leads (help/support). And now I'm just rambling...Thanks.