I'm sure there is someone for you. I have been on and off treatment during my seven year relationship and his love and support have been the only things that were constant. Get healthy and you WILL find the right person for you.

As far as your mistakes- what can worrying do? Worrying can't change any of it- just use your regrets as motivation to get and stay healthy for a better future.

I'm saying this as someone who knows- I have had my share of mistakes and am now facing bankruptcy because of years of just existing and not taking care of my problems. I am full of regrets and shame for the situation I am in and my fiance continues to tell me- worry can't change it. But I promise I am going to stay on my meds now and have a better future- for me and those that love me.

Best wishes and prayers for you.