it's such a shame that the best lovers are the hardest to get near...

like that everything great about me must cancel itself out just so I can exist!

so I am left with nothing

I am worse just knowing what I am incapable of...

shame touches me in every part of my body

I cry so easily I gasp for breath while I cry

I have to hide because it is too intense

clearly I am sad now despite all my wonderful aspirations

...hell I am still upbeat

I don't fit in any of life's spaces

life's spaces cannot contain me

I miss out on the beauty of everlasting friendship

I miss out on someone knowing me deeply and likewise

I have another purpose

I am so reluctant to embrace it

the universal architect has designed me otherwise to what I want

I have to submit

I can see Gods design I know I am suitable...

but I am scared

because I miss what I can never have

who is going to cuddle me?

no body ever has

nobody ever can

I must be strong

I can guide others to be what I never can be

I am untouchable