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Old Dec 21, 2006, 11:45 PM
freewill
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I went to a new T today.. YEAH.. I finally found one(even one that I cound afford) and the experience made me think about the following:

Does anyone else experience "snapshots" in time and is this PTSD? Where time freezes and you just see a snapshot but feel the feeling?

For instance:
When I was 5yrs, I attended a one room school house. I was a kindergradener and I had to walk to the babysitters - about 1.5 miles. The area was completely rural. Nearest neigbors about a mile apart or so.We had lived there maybe 4 months before school starting.

When winter came, the landscape looked different. And I would get lost and wander around on some gravel roads unable to find my way. The winter back then was lots of snow and bitterly cold. Eventually, a neighbor would be driving along and find me and take me to the babysitters.

So my memory is 2 frozen snapshots.
1) a mental picture of the curve in the road where I always chose wrong
2) a mental picture of my hands up aginst the car heater vent warming my hands because they are freezing cold

I "go" back to these snapshots every once in a while if something triggers it. It isn't a verbal memory but a mental memory I guess.However, I feel the same feeling as it was at that exact time.
The indecision
The bitter cold
The extreme fear
The relief of someone finding me

Do the snapshots ever go away and how do you make them?