I apologize if this offends anyone, but I need to let this out.

I am worried that I was molested, but cannot remember. I remember about... maybe 7-10% of my childhood in fragments.

I am 'frigid' when it comes to sexual relations and have major difficulty with relationships with guys (I've never been in a relationship and I am 19). I also have a huge problem when it comes to being touched even when it's just a platonic pat on the shoulder. The thought of fingering and oral sex on a woman completely shuts me down.

I am diagnosed with clinical depression and have an anxiety disorder.

My parents divorced when I was a toddler and I had visitation with my father, but cannot remember any of it. All of my life I have just felt wrong. I do remember bits of acting out non consensual sexual things when playing with my barbies and always knew more than I should have about sex since I was very sheltered.

I just want someone's opinion please.