Thanks pattijane for that detailed response. I am currently reading Getting Past Your Past and while it is really useful(and finally I have been able to find a calm place I can actually use, which was really difficult for me to find because everywhere had negative feeling/emotions etc attached)..... I find that even reading the book is stimulating memories and connections that I prefer to keep behind the doors of the rooms I built in my head for them. I am having trouble deciding 100% to go for it, because my T is fairly new to EMDR(but not a new psychologist at all) and I struggle to trust someone that is such a beginner. Yikes! We are working through my reluctance.......

Pfrog.....I am really scared, but I figure if I dont have to talk in detail about all the bad stuff it has got to be a good thing. Just experiencing the emotions ans sensations though already is TOUGH!!!

Now my T is on holiday for 3 weeks....so plenty of time to procrastinate and stress about it!