rehabilitation...

what a concept and how even more amazing I didn't have to go to jail ever to make it nearly impossible...

I have been helped by things not of this world
and now I want to give back

I have been very dangerous for very long...
and this is why I have isolated

it's been a hellride of mentally ill rage and tumult

may as well have been hooting around in satan's black leather nappies!
...waving a flamethrower around
and with a shotgun up my butt!

with a million emotional splinters all over my infant struggling limbs...
stepping on giant bits of glass upon my tickly toes...

hitting the day like a psychotic commando!
darting around this way and that pre-occupied with a sensitivity violence!

and most of all?

confused...

dying inside a permanent question?

and very upset without an answer.

I know now... my rehabilitation consists of just calming the heck down

..but! I did not arrive at this myself

like I said....I have been helped by things not from this world
it's happened before but I didn't understand...

oops just lost my thought
but it's ok